I can do stuff, so why don't I?

7.30 phone rings, my friend Angelo, I don't answer.

8.00 phone rings, my friend James, I don't answer.

8.10 phone rings, my friend Anthony, I don't answer.

9.00 phone rings, my friend Eric, I answer but make up a excuse as to WHY I don't want to hang out.

9.10 phone rings, my friend Brandon, I don't answer.

Why don't I answer? Why don't I want to hang out? I just sit here at home and wonder why I can't get the energy to fucking get my ass up out of this chair and hang out with at least ONE of my friends. I feel so BLAH, so out of it. It's like something has control over me and has totally sucked the energy out of my body. I don't even CARE about hanging out and I know by at least 11 tonight my phone will RING once again. I hope it's not depression, I hope it's not me becoming a recluse. I've just stopped caring these past few days......I hope it changes.
posted at 8:41 PM